big event today: took a nap that lasted way too long.
also got my stupid assignment done for management class, i had to take like 5 personality exams online which took FOREVER and then summarize them, and answer some dumb questions. I feel accomplished though because it was supposed to be 1 page minimum and i have 4 pages! bwahaha

another event today: took a shower and sang loudly! it felt good but my stupid jaw won't open very wide because somehow the lack of teeth make my mouth smaller, figure that one out.

the pile of remaining homework is daunting. i'm going to hide in the corner from it until it morphs into a monster and devours me, hopefully soon because that nap took a lot of time away today! grrrr, stupid me.

alrighty then, i'm trying to post more, third one in 24 hours, i think i'm doing pretty good.

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also, i'm no longer studying abroad. there are reasons for this but mainly because of money, lack of a desirable program due to my inferior grades, and the fact that it would delay graduation.

i think there was another one too, but i forget. just thought i'd update any interested party.

today i had my wisdom teeth out.

Dr. Murphey said that it could not have gone any easier

they are sore, but nothing unmanageable. i did not get any pain killers.

my homework sits in the corner gathering dust. I really need to stop procrastinating, there won't be any time to do it when i'm back at school.

the end.

So, the other day at work I closed the sandwich line by myself. I thought to boost my energy, I would slip in my iPod and listen to that while cleaning. Well that worked great! I had tons of fun dancing/cleaning.

Apparently though, I never took the iPod out of my pocket of my work pants and they got run through the washer. My iPod is ruined. All the songs on it are no more, except for back-ups on my computer. I am not covered for this iPod and my carelessness has made getting a new iPod asap a priority. I can't handle long trips without my precious mp3 player, thus I will have to save money and buy a new one. This is also my chance to upgrade to a classic if I so choose, which I just might.

Anything else in my life worth mentioning? Not really. I get to work opens for the next 3 days, meaning waking up before sunrise and going to sleep before sunset.

It is Gary and my 4th anniversary on the 11th. That's kinda crazy. I don't know what we're doing yet, but it doesn't really matter, I don't expect some fancy-schmancy evening or anything.

This Sunday is the Doughlympics at work. Another day when i have to wake up un-godly early to get to the East side by 7:30 with my guitar, wigs, a coleman chair, and a fantastic hawaiian shirt that is too big for me. w00t. W/e, it's a day where i'm getting back to sit back and laugh at my co-workers, and all i have to do to achieve it is sing a minute-long song about the strawberry poppyseed salad to the tune of dancing in the street. Pretty special.

Flash, my manager is driving separately, and I'm thinking about joining him, to take the guitars and what-not. I'm sure he could use the company and i don't really want to be stuck on a bus with my fellow associates for 2 1/2 hours.

This iPod thing is a pretty imminent threat to my happiness, so I'll have to remedy it as soon as financially possible. Aaron, i might need you for this, I would love to get a hold of that discount of yours in order to get the classic.

So, that's my life right now. Early mornings and early evenings, sorry if I seem like i'm no fun, it's just exhaustion.

Love you all!!! <3
~kat

I took my computer in because my computer wouldn't turn on...

I got it back in two days, they seriously shipped it to another state where they replaced things in 8 minutes and shipped it back to the store. I love it. It works wonderfully and I still have full coverage on it for another year and a half. I'm pretty excited and pleased with myself because i bought that extra coverage, even though mom had her doubts about the extra $250, but I knew that it's better to be prepared, I seriously just got paid back for that, because it would have cost a FORTUNE to get this thing fixed otherwise.

I went home last weekend to see Gary. I have pictures of us on facebook, the first ever pictures of us both in the same photo...it's kind of amazing, we're just not a very photo-happy couple, i guess. Oh well, I plan to correct that if we're ever going to have something for people to look at for the wedding reception.

So, life is good.

:) I hope all your lives are wonderful!

GARY'S COMING HOME!!!! either late this week, or next week!!!!!!

i'm excited. I've also decided that fall of my "senior" year of college I am going to study abroad in Greece, if i can.

I went home last weekend to get my car and bring it up to eau claire to park in the obscure parking lot, but it's still in the vacinity of campus so that's super.

I just had a freak-attack about registering for spring classes but it was too soon to be freaking out since i have until november 28th. I mistook the winterim registration date for the spring date.

anyways, i have a car, a job, a man, and a plan to go to one of the most interesting and intriguing countries in the world.

i'm basically happy.

As you all know, being avid readers of my life stories, I was both dreading and excited about Gary's graduation from Basic Training from the Army.

I have been re-scheduling my work, exams, classes, homework, etc. for this event.

I planned to take a Greyhound down to Madison on Wednesday night and then drive to Mt. Horeb in order to drive with Gary's parents to MO.

Unfortunately, that meant that i would miss 5 classes, 2 work shifts, and my first exam in Accounting.

all of this stress would have been much worth it to see my man on his proudest day.

until yesterday, i thought that would happen.

I called Gary's mother in order to check in on plans for the trip, only to discover that Gary had called them and let them know that he would NOT be graduating from basic training on Oct. 5, as we thought, but in fact that his graduation has been post-poned indefinitely.

now...i can go to work, take my exam, and go to my classes, which is good.

I do not know why he can't graduate, and i have to wait, at least until sunday, when he calls me, maybe to find out what's going on in his world right now.

i miss him so much.

just updating so ya'll know what's up in my life.
~kat

I just realized this morning that I haven't had my birth control in awhile.

I went to my pack to see how long ago was the last time...last saturday.

I don't know how i forgot. It just never occurred to me.

It's not as if I'm in danger of getting pregnant, but it does fuck up my hormones a bit.

I want to take a nap. My roommate is napping, but I have class at 2 and it's 12:54. That would be an awfully short nap and it would risk waking my roommate when i went to class.

Instead, i'm going to surf the web and pretend that i'm not tired. I'll nap after class, before Ceili that is.

I'm excited for the first meeting tonight, but also very exhausted.my disheveled bed calls to me.

I miss gary. i miss him a lot. I spoke to him once in 8 weeks.

I don't think i'm going to be able to go to his graduation since i would be missing 2 math classes, one of every other class, and 2 work shifts.

How am i supposed to tell him that I can't come to the proudest day of his life? How am I supposed to convey my reasons in a way that he'll understand. How am I supposed to survive without seeing him on that day? The day after his graduation he is to be shipped off to Arizona for his specialized training, no break. Then I won't be able to see him until maybe Thanksgiving. I am trying to make it work, but when i come back to school after i see him, I don't want to be completely stressed because of all the make-up work that will be waiting for me.


I am terrified that he won't understand, that he'll shrug it off when I know he wants me there.

Sorry to rant and rave. I know my concerns are nothing compared to what some of you are facing.

~kat

I reached Eau claire, and am starting my life.

Meeting new people, getting a job on campus, doing the mountains of homework nessesary to succeed.

I haven't posted in awhile because I didn't know if it was a good idea.

Now that I am posting, I don't know what to say except that Accounting is bitch-tacular when it comes to the homwork part. One chapter is like a textbook in and of itself, too many notes taken and not enough pages to fully explain to myself later what the hell its talking about.

I like all the rest of my classes just fine. Chrissy Reza and I are in psychology together. It's nice to see another familiar face on campus that actually wants me around.

making friends is hard for me, but once I have made a friend, it will be a good one, and by the end of the year you can bet that i'll have made some pretty amazing friends and then I can get out of ty's hair.

Chubs is doing great. He survived the cartrip up here and now swims around for my entertainment, even though I suspect that him watching me type right now is pretty entertaining for him as well.

I got a new cell phone, for those of you who didn't know. (608) 446-5201 is the number, in case you care.

Well, I guess I better head down the hill once again to make my way to my Math class.

XOXO,
~kat

to any interested parties,

I found my ring. It is not maimed or damaged in any way and I am SO pleased to have it return to my finger, where it belongs.

If you are wondering where I found it...

I shall never tell, for it was a surprise even to the most obscure hider of treasure and other such valuable items.


One thing that has gone right, however, has led to many to go wrong, all wrong. No word from Gary on where I can send him the beautiful letters that I put so much care into. My borrowed cellphone is now disconnected as well, causing me to be tossed back into the dark ages once again. Work is becoming very difficult, not from lack of skill, but simply exhaustion. Now that I will need to buy a new phone and phone plan, that puts saving money on the forefront of my mind, meaning that Six Flags is probably going to have to rest on the back-burner until I figure out someway of saving up for the upcoming school year and still having a day of fun with friends, right now though, the Great America trip, for me at least, is postponed.
*sidenote: wow, that's a lot of commas!*

If that changes, I will let you know. I'm sorry, circumstances are just not right for such an expense at this given time.

New leaf.

I'm forced to put away my adolescent desires and focus on the future.

Tomorrow will come and gary will leave. That part is undeniable. I must learn how to be on my own, spend more time with me.

Play games, catch up on my reading, continue writing, and finally look through that huge stack of national geographic that i've put off until august.

Work, hang with friends, and find time to myself.

I'm trying to save money, but i don't want to exclude myself from the events that i definitely wanted to do, like Six Flags. Not that i'm a huge roller-coaster junkie, but I enjoy the company and the excitement of being near to the adrenaline.

i don't have much to say at this point, I have accepted that the future that i once held so close has faded and a new one will have to take it's place, leaving room for the unknown.

i want to start my life at eau claire.

Staying busy with work. 8hours shifts for 7 days straight. Staying away from the house and the drama that happens there.

Trying not to think about what july will bring. when I lose my best friend.

keep busy, keep moving, keep living. don't think about how badly i want fall to come, and with it a new start at a new school, where maybe people will like me for who i am, and i don't have to pretend anymore.

my future looks bleak. business administration major, let's see how long that lasts.

I'm too tired to hang out with my friends after work. My ankles are swollen and my legs burn. Why can't Panera have this effect on my stomach?

Barely surviving with what money i do have.

Of course i want to see my friends after my unfriendly year at Oshkosh, but no one wants to wake up before noon in the summer, and i leave for work at 1.

No time or too tired.

I would hang out if it didn't mean walking, i know what i said about losing 20 pounds this summer, but when am i going to find the energy to work out and spend 3/4 of my day at work. My legs are getting built while my chest stays the same, which does quite the number on my upper back...

need to see the chiropractor again. There are just not enough hours in the day to make a sufficient income and to have a social life.

I got a promise ring from Gary on the 1st. My mother suggested it instead of an engagement ring, ty asked me about how that affects abbie.

I don't know what to say. Abbie has not contacted me for months. I don't even know if she has gotten my messages. I don't want to seem like a stalker and call too often, but I don't want to lose her either.

I cry after reading her posts. I didn't know that she would be in town until today. I feel like I've been cut out from her life, and I don't know if I'll ever be able to find a place in it again. That thought shakes me in my sleep. I have dreams that she doesn't want me around, that she just wants to forget me and start over. Do what makes you happy. I can't stress that enough, I agree with whoever you quoted in a post awhile back. Although I don't think you feel the same for me as I do for you anymore.

I know Mel is starting to hate that I never want to hang out, Gary leaves on the 24th of July, and then I probably won't see him for 29 weeks. I just want to spend every minute I have left with him, I'm sorry if you hate me for it.

After July I'll be more willing to do things. I'll actually need as much distraction as possible because I won't be able to talk to him for the first 9 weeks, and I haven't gone 1 day without talking to him on the phone for months. The transition will be very difficult.

Abbie, I miss you.

love always,
~kat

I have 3 days left here, only 2 more nights, and a whole lot of studying away from coming home.

I have to call Panera and see if they can get me back into the schedule, and I might be having 2 jobs this summer, possibly at kwik trip, or wal-greens, or anywhere else, I desperately NEED to be making A LOT of money this summer.

I have a list of things that I should buy before the next school year:

DVD player
Mini fridge, possibly
and i don't remember what else i wanted, so I'll probably list them later.

I'm watching a re-run of Gilmore girls, a newer one, but I haven't seen it because I wasn't very good in watching it weekly, bad kat.

i don't have anything else to say right now, i took a nap today and during that nap, FIVE people called, seriously? omg, wow, that's a lot of people/calls. and none of them were from my boyfriend or my mom.

<3

Gary joined the military. 2 days ago.

He didn't consult me about it, because he knew what i would say, i would say, "FUCK NO, you aren't joining any military, it's just stupid"

so he went behind my back and did it. I should be mad, but if it's really want he wants to do, and it seems like it, he seems really excited and happy about it, then i support you baby.

just don't go off and get yourself killed because i will be IRATE with you forever.

anywho, today (friday) i woke up SUPER early!, seriously, like 5:30, and then for some stupid reason, I stayed up. Now it's 6:46 and I have absolutely nothing to do with myself until I have to go to class.

Maybe I'll go to breakfast, OMG, what a good idea!

I'm so smart.

Anywho, I don't really know what else to say at this time.

I'll be working my ass off this weekend trying to get my presentation done for class on tuesday. only EIGHT days until I'm home for the summer. *is excited* not that i have anything big planned, a lot of sex, work, and friend time

and then in july i'll have a meltdown and go crazy. hopefully ya'll can be there for me when gary leaves for basic training, because i'll need like 15 shoulders to cry on.

*sigh*

i wonder when the dirty bird opens? *checks* 7 am

so now i just have to find something to do for 11 minutes...*stares at chubs with a fishy face for 3 minutes*

I work today from 2-4 and then work work work work work on my paper/presentation for tuesday.

because i'm lazy, and haven't really started it yet, class today is going to be BOR-ING I have to listen to the other group present all day, and technically I don't have to go, but then i'd be sitting here being bored until 2pm. i'd just rather go and get perfect attendance, which does impact my grade, so i'll read, or color, or draw pretty pictures of sheep, or just snooze a little.

too bad the professor likes to sit RIGHT NEXT TO ME while grading presentations, otherwise i could get away with most of the before-mentioned things.

oh well, i'll just listen and get ideas about my presentation which will ROCK, okay, not really, but i'll probably get another "B" on it. doesn't matter, as long as I pass i'm super-fine with a B in the class.

alright, well I suppose i'll go eat breakfast, even though I have another 2 hours before my class starts, and I definitely won't be eating for all that time.

*can't wait to come home* stupid me, i should stop thinking about it.

tra la la
toodles!,
~kat

I'm stressed about these stupid presentations that i know i can get through but still don't want to do.

i'm worried about a certain girl that is very near and dear to my heart because she hasn't contacted me after i called on thursday, I don't want to be a stalker abbie, i just want to know what's going on. I'm worried about you and I want some reassurance so i don't freak myself out with the possibilities.

please let me into your life and what's going on right now.

anyways, lots of stupid drama with the people here, crazy heidi and athena issues are still the main form of entertainment for me. I really wish that heidi wasn't so crazy in love with athena because it's going to be really hard for heidi to see athena go to australia.

australia, i want to go to australia, okay, maybe not in the freaking summer, because people would mistake me for a really large lobster and try to eat me, but i would like to go sometime...

hell, i would just like to get out of oshkosh. get me out of this city, out of this state, and out of this country, let me go somewhere exciting, let me walk down the streets of paris, or london, or rome.

i'm really sick of hearing people's opinions on the whole "should burning the american flag be accepted as a freedom of expression" thing. I've just listened to aprrox. 30 speeches on that topic for the last 3 hours.

I'm thinking about dropping the class, but i'm pretty sure i need 30 credits minimum to transfer, and i'm also pretty sure that i still have to work on friday, and i will be needing my paycheck from that, so either way i'm stuck here. I might as well bear it, it'll be good practice for all the business speeches I will have to give in the future, because of my change in major.

you know, now that i'm a business major, people don't really take me seriously on artistic views or on literature, and i'm like, wtf? I just want to run my own business, be fulfilled as an entrepreneur, i have no idea how to spell that, but w/e and then the artistic folk don't take me seriously, like i wouldn't have a clue because of my major, not because of my interests or hobbies. poo-heads.

that's right, they're all poo-heads in my opinion. i've gotten really immature over the last couple of paragraphs.

I just wanted to create a nice long post for my fans to read, but i know that i haven't any fans, so whatever, i'm just doing this for me. i like to post things about my life for random people to read, or not read, whatever floats your boat darling.

i think i should lose 20 lbs. that will be my summer goal so i can go to eau claire looking fabulous and maybe meet that stephanie girl that ty is insistent that i get to know better.

that way i will look fabulous and have the confidence i need to be myself, a fun, flirty, cute, and sarcastic friend that you hate to love and love to hate. i don't know if that's really me, but hey, it works.

i'm really anxious to hear from eau claire on where i'm living next year. ANXIOUS ANXIOUS ANXIOUS i hope it's on the first floor of bridgman, because i've decided that stairs of the devil, and i also hope that it is in the area of tykin's room.

I LOVE EAU CLAIRE! the city, the school, the scenery, the wildlife, the rock, the river, the plays, especially the leads of the plays *swoon* and everything else too. i don't even mind the construction.

*sigh* it's too long until i can be there. :(

ummmmmmmmm, so now i'm just procrastinating writing, what my professor calls a "short essay," a five-page paper on Roe v. Wade, HEY brilliant idea, how about anyone who reads this posts their opinions on Roe v. Wade and i can put it in my paper as a student opinion survey!

super idea kat,
thank you kat, i know, i'm a genius,
you sure are,
i know it, don't even worry
oh, i'm not worried, you're fabulous

alright enough of that. so, post stuff!!! that'd be super funtastic!


hello, in reverse
~kat

So I took my first exam today, SUPER EASY!

but that's probably because i spent all week studying my booty off for it.
Now all i have to do is ace the two presentations, two papers, and the final and i'm in the clear.

I only have 2 shifts to work during this 3 week session, and one of them is today.

I'm not that excited about it, but it isn't a very long shift and i'll be out before dark.

:) general feeling today? happy. I flirted with the custodian on this floor by coming out of my room all sultry-like and floating down the hall, eyes downcast, modest but wild. hehehe

i don't know why that makes me feel good. I fully intend to flirt with EVERY customer today at work. :) hehe

so, i don't know why i feel so good, probably because i just totally ACED that exam!

be happy for me? that would be nice.

hey ya'll i'm super excited that you're all going home, and I can't WAIT to see you in 2 more weeks. This summer will be AMAZING!!!!!!!

okay, now that i've used caps WAY too many times in this post, i think i should go to work. :)

i love going to work in jeans and a t-shirt. it's the best. no uniform or stuffy clothes, despite the fact that it's food service, it's still fun. and i love the people that have been there for ages, except when they're cranky.


now i'm rambling, sorry. happy happy happy happy, i wish someone would call me, you know who you are....:)

happy happy happy.

love forever,
~kat

So I'm taking an interim course while all of your have finals and then get to go home.

My class is about American Government and Poltics.

And what i was told about this class, that it is remarkably easy and all i have to do is the review and show up, turned out to be remarkably wrong.

I have to give 2 speeches for exams, also do 2 multiple choice exams on top of that in 3 weeks time.

I feel bad for Lauren, who is taking 3 interim courses when i am only taking one, spent 3 hours on homework and then still didn't get to chapter 2.

damn, she's screwed.

I'm not really that excited about giving my speeches, especially since it's also a question/answer portion, which I will probably freak out about.

but overall, I think i will like the professor and I am going to come out of the class with a new understanding of how our government works, and an amazing ability to understand chinese accents.

:) i'm ubber excited that i came back to find my room pleasantly empty, i was worried that they would stick me with a roommate these last three weeks, but it turns out that my worries were no necessary.

I got two books in Eau claire that i'm pretty excited about, one is the magical properties and encyclopedia of herbs, and the other is herbal remedies for home use. I bought a lot of herbs over the years and now I finally have something to do with them.

horray!

My social life basically consists of bisexual and lesbian women right now, not that i am complaining, but it would be nice if some of the loving that they show each other could somehow be directed towards me.

I really want a girlfriend next year, that stephanie girl looks promising, but i need to figure out how to meet her.

I'm super anxious about where i'm going to live next year, as well as the whole parking situation thing.

but I guess i should just focus on getting through these next couple weeks and then start worrying about next year's chaotic transfer into happiness.

summer summer summer, that's all i can think about right now.

for now, i'm content with chubs at my side, what a good fish he has turned out to be.

raindrops are fallin on my head
~kat

No matter how hard i try or how long I sit, there's still no guaruntee that I will get the grade I want.

Lab test today, one last obstacle before a fantastic weekend

Scared out of my mind for this exam. Studying all night didn't do what it needed to, i still don't feel like I know anything.

Going to eau claire right after I pack my car and get all my shit from the other side of the room because someone will be moving in on sunday, someone I have never met and I don't know at all. A stranger for 3 weeks.

I can't imagine who I will get. I'm terrified that I will scare her and then the room atmosphere will be awkward.

I just want to go home. I miss my animals and my bed.

I'm so excited for this weekend, but I don't know how I am going to get through the next couple of weeks.

I need a freaking job during the summer.

Panera isn't coming through for me, again. I think I need to find somewhere else to work.

I'm tired, which is definitely not what I want to be on the day i have a final and also that i have loads of shit to pack into my car and then drive for 3 1/2 hours.

:) i'll get through it somehow.

~kat

So, last night I went to banquet with beautiful hair done by Malinda and Heidi.

It started out great, except that Jill was stressed and snapped at anything i said.

Too formal, everyone had a HUGE stick up their ass, except for Emily who was much too informal.

The food was great, but then the awards went on and on and on. By the time it ended, I was itching to get out of there.

Once it released, I took off my heels and ran down the hall to get to formal first so I could get one of the very limited signature martini glass that only the first 50 people got.

I was very excited to get that. Only once I got inside of the dance, I looked around and realized that no one cared that I was there or that I felt comfortable talking to. I left, alone with my pretty dress and my heels and my martini glass.

quite pathetic really.

oh well, today was somewhat better. I got some of my art project done and all that jazz, going to have to study tonight, got laundry done, and don't have to go to bio tomorrow, I always skip review sessions.

So, yeah, there's my sad little story. wah.

whatever, so i'm looking forward to next weekend, and i'm just trying to get through this chaotic week.

love,
~kat

SOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!

Math 10-10:50 Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday

Psychology 11-11:50 Monday, Wednesday, and Friday

Accounting 12:30-1:45 Tuesday and Thursday

Information Systems for Business 2-2:50 Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.

earliest class, 10 am
latest class, 2:50

I'm pretty psyched.

go kat's amazing scheduling skills!

one complaint: i have to take another remedial math because the one i took in oshkosh didn't transfer as a math class, but as an elective, which sucks. :(

OH well, i'll deal. just have to take a HUGE courseload spring semester. w/e.

SUPER EXCITED!!!!!!
Eau claire is SSOOOOOOOO pretty!

tralala, alright, well i got shit i need to do.

laters,
~kat